Fear

A little excerpt from 'Life of Pi'- that I thought really puts fear into perspective:

I must say a word about fear. It is life’s only true opponent. Only fear can defeat life. It is a clever, treacherous adversary, how well I know. It has no decency, respects no law or convention, shows no mercy. It goes for your weakest spot, which it finds with unerring ease. It begins in your mind, always. One moment you are feeling calm, self-possessed, happy. Then fear, disguised in the garb of mild-mannered doubt, slips into your mind like a spy. Doubt meets disbelief and disbelief tries to push it out. But disbelief is a poorly armed foot soldier. Doubt does away with it with little trouble. You become anxious. Reason comes to do battle for you. You are reassured. Reason is fully equipped with the latest weapons technology.

But, to your amazement, despite superior tactics and a number of undeniable victories, reason is laid low. You feel yourself weakening, wavering. Your anxiety becomes dread.Fear next turns fully to your body, which is already aware that something terribly wrong is going on. Already your lungs have flown away like a bird and your guts have slithered away like a snake. Now your tongue drops dead like an opossum, while your jaw begins to gallop on the spot. Your ears go deaf. Your muscles begin to shiver as if they had malaria and your knees to shake as though they were dancing. Your heart strains too hard, while your sphincter relaxes too much. And so with the rest of your body. Every part of you, in the manner most suited to it, falls apart. Only your eyes work well. They always pay proper attention to fear.

Quickly you make rash decisions. You dismiss your last allies: hope and trust. There, you’ve defeated yourself. Fear, which is but an impression, has triumphed over you.The matter is difficult to put into words. For fear, real fear, such as shakes you to your foundation, such as you feel when you are brought face to face with your mortal end, nestles in your memory like a gangrene; it seeks to rot everything, even the words with which to speak of it. So you must fight hard to express it. You must fight hard to shine the light of words upon it. Because if you don’t, if your fear becomes a wordless darkness that you avoid, perhaps even manage to forget, you open yourself to further attacks of fear because you never truly fought the opponent who defeated you.”

What you think is what you are - and as the world will be what you see it as.

Don't let fear win the battle.

A tribute to London

A small tribute to my beautiful London - the best city in the world and what dreams are made of.

Till I return, this is to suffice.

Pics are from personal collection plus a talented photographer at www.capturedsight.co.uk. Please visit his site for more amazing pictures of London.

From Melbourne, Australia, Earth

Australia has been a welcome respite from the existential crisis I was suffering in the previous months. It has helped old wounds heal and unnecessary memories to be forgotten. I have been given a new purpose and the ability to forget the ambiguity of the past few months.

Looking back on them, I no longer feel any strong emotion towards them or the people that made them happy (specifically one). I just wish to move on - start a life and excel at it. Being around a 2 year old does help significantly (especially if its not your own)! You get to see the simplicity of life and the excitement with which it should be recieved. I'm not saying we all start our days screaming with joy but just appreciate that this is a new day and we have the chance to start over. And we all have the world as our oyster.

I've been feeling the need for a metropolitan hub since leaving London. I was merely fooling myself thinking I could lead a suburban life and be happy with just a local cafe in a 4 mile radius and that only opening on normal opening hours. I need that access at all times kinda feeling in the place I live in. Sydney may be more catered to that sort of life and Melbourne is a lot like that as well. One day, I hope I can live in NY too. Its very close to London but I hear its a lot dirtier :D

I'm continuing with my life coaching course. I think it'll give me enough tools to try get to my goals as well as an opportunity to help others. I have to do a Masters starting from Feb in a finance related subject since I think thats the best possible job preference for me. I have this unexplainable attraction towards commodity pricing and real estate. Odd.

Well Im off to do some living..

Speak soon!!

Aussie Land and its adventures...

Perth was absolutely great! At first I took a while to get accustomed to the different way of life as opposed to London but once I started thinking that I'm on holiday there and I shouldn't compare the two cities - then I started having fun!

It's a lot like L.A., being very spaced out and big roads, palm trees! Ppl are constantly drinking in pubs in casual clothes leading me to question whether anyone actually works in this place. Clothes are cheap compared to London and they got some good shopping centres! The clubs are pretty good too - although I do miss the hustle and bustle of London. Im used to people rushing about and always having something to do whereas in Perth, people seem to be okay with not having anywhere specific to go in a hurry. I'm not sure whether I would be okay with living there but as a holiday it was awesome!

I led a bit of a student life in Perth since my cousin and her friends are still at uni - which was good! Now, Im in Melbourne and entertaining my little 2 year old nephew. He is adorable with the cutest smile! Melbourne's very different to Perth and has some amazing architecture! Its more of a metropolitan city and less fieldy. But again, the suburbs remind me of the States. I'm planning to apply to several different universities here and in Sydney for a Masters. I've decided to go back to doing Accounting as I can easily get Permanent Residency in Australia if I do that. After getting that and settling down, maybe I'll be able to do the life coaching course.

I'm off to Sydney in a few weeks. Just trying to occupy myself for a few weeks here. Should be interesting.

Will keep updating the blog!

Happy Weekend!!

Happy weekend to aaaaalll!!!!

Im off to Perth on Sunday and I begin my long awaited travels in Australia. I'm totally excited. So far, my mates there have planned a week of whalewatching, sunsets over the sea, stargazin (don't ask!), beach tanning, aqwa (their underwater world) and zoo trips. Not to mention, I'll have to acquaint myself with Australian High Street brands - I am going to miss Topshop etc badly!!!

Well here's to longawaited new beginnings!!!!

Wish everyone an equally eventful week ahead... I shall keep the blog updated on my travels.